moms&abah left on thursday morning.
ive got my bestfriend for housemate.
when nana left for work thursday morning, i cried.
i felt so alone.
but i continued memorizing.
then i called the parents.
reached safely.
they put sufi on the phone and i kept saying i love her.
abah asked me to stop cause she was "searching" for me.
i cried.
called again at night.
they put me on loudspeaker.
i heard everyone, laughing and family-ing vibe.
must be laying around, watching teevee and playing with sufi i thought.
i cried.
before i went to bed, i thought of all the family-ing im missing,
i cried.
emo neh neh.
i guess Big girls do cry afterall.
first paper was do-able.
i bought 2 copies of seventeen cause i want both tote.
i know everyone's gna carry it.
heck.
cheap thrill.
i chilled at starbucks waiting for nana to close store like as if i only have one paper.
okdahbye.
its personal, myself & i
& im gna miss you like a child misses their blanketi miss my parents.
this is the second time IN MY LIFE they BOTH leave me ALONE at HOME.
i screwed up big time the first time but i made the bestest mistake, ever.i feel the GREAT difference this time round
& i thank God for nana.
if not for her, i'd be curling up in my bed, scared for my life.
im a scaredy cat like that.
& sometimes, it doesnt help that people dear to me, who jolly well knows im a big fat scaredy cat, makes it worse.
like stop it alrdy, deal with it, im scared, i cant help it, shutup.
this is going nowhere.
bye.
1:16 AM;
go on, gimme some♥
