empowered.

Hello, Pretty Strangers.
I'm learning on how to change the world, by changing diapers first.
I'm an only child with four sisters and a brother.
No. Wait. Make that five sisters. I was told to choose one more, anyone in the world and I chose her.
I was spoilt as a child and is still trying to grow up.
But there are "evil" people in the world who makes pretty things and I can't seem to stop myself.
Especially colourful undies.
&bags.
&trinkets.
&bags.
&bags.
Still trying, though.
I love to eat but I don't hate the treadmill.
I'm just plain lazy.
Lazy.
& fickle.
I like to pop by SB-TH and give my Bubbles & Buttercup chocolates.
Then, I'll spend all my money buying a Venti & just waste my time away.
Perfeckt.
My issues with hair is never-ending.
I love bimbo books, with pretty covers.
Aisyah Sufiyah is my favourite-est-est girl.
My friends call my continous, multiple, self-shots; narcissism.
I prefer to say its capturing memories.
I never had the bestest group of friends like I have now.
When I'm not happy, I talk to God in English.
& He listens.
The rest of the time, I'm pretty much happy.
So, in short;
My life's very much blessed.

i ate doughnuts with atiqah today. we had half a dozen, three each.

then i took pony from sharul at starbucks vivo.

i found NEWFOUND bliss of buying my niece baby clothes with the 50bucks dad suddenly, without reason gave me. (which of course i'm gna claim back from mom la. HEH. but i did the choosing which was very mind boggling!)

yesterday,

i watched Oprah on this holocaust episode.

i saw 2 siblings, arnd my age, separated from their parents in the 1994 Rwanda holocaust thingy for almost 12 years & when Oprah said, "your parents, and the siblings you never saw, they are here."

i BAWLED.

i kept talking to myself (thank goodness no one's at home), "how the fuck can that happen? they cant just take away people's family like that."

and i felt helpless.

i felt so helpless as the show went on and i'm just sitting there being a complete couch potato, thanking God for my parents.

i felt helpless living in comfort, and maybe a teeny bit of luxury whilst people are still getting killed and kids being separated from their parents that maybe, IF their lucky Oprah will bring them back together 10 years down the road.

she's so powerful she amazed me.

i really felt helpless, and i still do.

i feel that im in no position, in no power, to do whatever i can do if i had those.

and its very sad.

i just CANNOT come to terms with the fact that there's such fucking stoopid thing going on in the world.

and im still feeling helpless while im typing this cause human nature in me can only go as far to cry for them and feel a heart wrenching pain for them.

i WISH, there'll be an enlightenment on me showing me what i can do, to actually really help.

well, at least, i know ive feelings.

and i want WORLD PEACE.

on a much lighter note,

plus size & white jeans dont work, right?

i hope River Island have them in darker colours

(see! see what i mean! i just typed a whole chunk about some mambo jumbo and all i can think of is shopping!)

and, to proof that i'm super touchy feely sappy,

i bought the movie Click on demand tv yesterday after Oprah

and i BAWLED again.

wtf la, and at last the storyline ended as a DREAM.

CHEY! waste the salty water from my eyes only.

ok dah bye.

12:15 AM;
go on, gimme some♥

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