if you're guilty,
you'll definitely feel like pple are staring at you even though their not
you'll definitely feel like pple are bitching abt you when their not
so who's not moving on now?
go fuck a durian and go home to MOMMIE
even "flies" has brainsthats it B-YOTCH....continuation 1733hrs...woots!
i just woke up from a long nap and here i am about to erupt in words again
i felt there's deja vu going on within me
ok lets see,
first thing: im a coward hiding behind my blogWOOTS!
congrats for ASSUMING who i actually am, YOU're GOD huh
too bad i only believe in ALLAH
this is my BLOG
what's the purpose of having a blog when i cant SAY things i WANT here?
im comfortable with typing what i feel is right and i DONT need other pple to interfere
if you dont like, you can simply leave
there's no health instruction that you should have 3 dosage of
http://umeyatwang.blogspot.com per day to be able to FUCK even better
there's thousand other blogs that are criticising, racism going on, bla bla
so there's nothing wrong with me blogging down my deepest feeling and shits
second thing: im a COPY CATWOOTS!
even thou im not any big fan of cats, im honoured to be a someone who copies
hey this is the 21st century, everyone copies each other
i dont mind being called that cause ive always copy my classmates and evrything
i mean, unless you're a SAINT who never copies
then, bless you
whats next?: my friends staring at you?DOUBLE WOOTS!
which one?
tell me please which one of my MANY friends are staring at you so that i can ask them what's wrong with their eyes staring at you?
oops! ok i got the facts wrong so i shall re-phrase before some pple starts shooting back at me
"my people" are looking at you!!!!
argghhhhhs!
first im a coward and now im a dictator!
i actually have "people" following me!
woots woots woots!
i dont even know i own "my people"!
who ar???
can tell me please?
why should they look at you?
what you do?
your illusion is it?
eh really mannns i wanna know who are these "people"
as far as i know,
you'll get that feeling that pple are looking/staring at you when you feel guillty
ive gone thru that before (im no saint ok. i made mistakes)
so take it from me, it will eventually go off
ok now: me spreading lies to my peopleWOOTS WOOTS WOOTS!
what kinda lies?
please be precise if you wanna say things ok
im really confuse here
im recalling things i say
errmmmmmsss........ermmm.....
what ah??
i dont need pple to believe me here
but i almost lost my dad early this year (dont even dare say im sympathetic)
and i swear with his life and my GOD, ALLAH that
i didnt even BREATHE a word about anything to my friends, any of my friends
only my BF know and i wonder how can he be looking at you and you can see it laaa (you have bionic eyes is it)
but your imaginary "my pple" i dunno
you better be careful
you're seeing things
oh GOD, forgive me for having to stoop to using my dad for this STOOpid thing but i have to, im pathetic anyways
right?
and lastly: i am CHILDISH! yay! im childish! yay! mommie yay!oh my GOD! i cant say woots anymore!
where shall i start here??
ok i am alone in the house for almost 18hrs each day and when my parents come back from slogging their guts out, they're all ready to go to sleep
so im basically on my own at home
bottom line is im independent cause i could survive miraculously
i dunno bout you
mebbe i will always feel awkard walking down town on my own
ive not come to that stage, yet
but when i see my friends, qah and nana doing it,
i wanna do it
why should have strings attached with friends, families, relatives and having them tagging along with me evry single time, wherever i go?
i should grow up and start doing things on my own
but, its just that im surrounded with friends and loved ones that cared
no matter what they will be there for me.
for a start,
i got myself a partner who's also my bestest ass who frequently absent herself from school
so i survived 6 solid hours in school on MY OWN
i dont have cliques that goes in GROUPS with me
i only have nana in class
i go evrywhere in school with her
if i get lucky i'll get to meet qah during recess
i dont have her tagging wit me ard school
i cant help it if i have good friends in class who will accompany me if they see nana's absent and im alone
but i dont mind eating alone
i dont mind going to school alone
i dont mind going home alone
im so used to it
im happy with it
another situation
i have my ONLY 2 AGED parents in this WORLD with me
(count yourself lucky your parents are younger and mebbe wealthier)
GOD almost took half my life away from me early this year but im so so GRATEFUL he didnt
i knew it was all a test
if you were the one in my shoes, i wonder what you'll do
i learned the difficult way out
i got things that i want but i earned it
maybe you're born lucky
i dunno
i dont splurge evry now and then
i dont need good food evry single weekend
i dont need labels on evry single item i have
evryone has their lucky star
i dont blame you
but may be thats the root of the problem
i dunno
so what if i behave like a 9year old although i prefer to be 7year old?
im an only child
im born to be pampered and babyish
you know i got from you saying this bout me?
is that you never KNEW me
i meant NOTHING to you in the short months we WERE friends
if you were to notice
i resolved things in an appropriate manner
YOU made me,
get childish
i dont thing you would rmb my last phone call
but you mentioned "umairah you're so annoying!"
wouldnt you feel mad if someone you were clinging like a "fly" and believing in and waiting for patiently said that to you????
well, good luck to the rest of the "flies"
now now
dont you ever DARE get this whole thing turn ard again and pointing back at me
dont you ever DARE to get coward and childish like me and post anything bout me ever again cause you stated CLEARLY that you wont
the whole chunk of things above may be IRRELEVANT but there's NO way a childish 9yr old would get thru her LIFE like that
no way.
so i conclude that being 9yr old who almost lost her dad, lost all her friends, has piles and mounts of problems and on top of all that preparing for O levels,
i AM a CHILD PRODIGY
YAY! MOMMIE IMMA CHILD PRODIGY!
I AM YOUNG AGAIN!
I CAN GO BACK TO THE SWINGS!
I CAN PLAY WITH MY BARBIE!
YAY!
thats IT, BYOTCH.
p/s: no offence. and i WILL spell it they way i want. you have been forbidden by your own words to not say anything bout this post or you would have stoop even lower. now taste your own medicine.
on a very light-er note,
thanks nana bestest assactually i havent told her that she's officially my bestest asshow did i come round to the bestest ass thing?well, nana hates to hear that pple love her so even thou i love her,ive to resort to calling her my bestest ass instead of my bestest friendanyways,im so paranoid bout this whole friends thing that i would rather have asses, bitches, lovers, darlings, honeys, sweets etc. surrounding mei dont dare to be associated with the word FRIENDS anymoreoh yeah anyways nana,thanks for that cute cat cardnow ive got one from you and one from qahthat completes it alleven thou both are cats card which im not a very big fan of,the words touch mebehind that cold, irritating ass,there is a PERSON with genuine feelingsscold meattitude to mebitch to metaunt at mestay that way nanacause thats the only way i know that its truenever hide your feelings bout mei might get hurt but i will learn from itthanks again for lending that shoulder to cry on when my dad was gasping for air and i thought i was about to lose himeven thou you didnt say anything,i knew you were therei am grateful along the way our paths met, our worlds collidei just hope that we would stay this wayand i can only continue hopingthanks girlfriend
1:46 PM;
go on, gimme some♥
