geography paper 2 was killer that's just because i carelessly didnt study a very important topic-Plate Tectonics. and now my A1/A2 gone with the wind!anyways,tough week.i just got to study last nite cuz just last nite i recovered from fever and fuckingly sore throatand on top of it, ive to study restlessly with my dearie daddy moaning in pain in the next room cuz he caught a very bad cold and he shivered like hell last nite.his lips were blue.it just shook me that life's fragile just so fragile.after like a pile of comforter and pillows and a few warm hugs from me,he got back to sleep and i went back studying then he started shivering again and i had to wait till mum's back.God.last nite was very scary.today,i was awoken in the morning by mum saying that dad wanns to go to the hospital.urggh.i just hate that word:HOSPITAL.i jumped out of bed and went to see him.then after some arrangements, i had to go do my geog mids with teary eyes as i walked down the stairs for skul cuz when i kissed daddy gdbye like evry morning,he cried.yarh.so mum had to go back to the office for awhile to sent some stuffs then she went hm to fetch dad to the "h" place.humpty calmed me down and the exam was smoothly done except for the killer part and the few rushing moments.so after paper(1015) i rushed to ttsh and was told to go to the A&E.i didnt wann go in the clinic cuz i just recovered so i sat outside the A&E alone waiting for dad's checkup for almost 2hrs.while waiting,i helped a weak man =)i took in my crazy surroundings with all the ambulance coming in bringing sickly,fragile old patients,foreign construction workers with bleeding hands looking lost,countless no. of pple buying drinks from the vending machine.i was so bored that i attempted to buy a sandwich that came out from a vending machine which seems like evryone was enjoying cuz now and then pple were flocking the machine to purchase the instant sandwich.ok enuf.crapping oredi. anyways, seeing all these other side of the world:the painful sufferings of people being ferried to and fro on wheelchairs and the hospital beds and also the suffering my dad went thru last nite,it just hit me that hatred, anger,jealousy,discriminatory shouldnt even exist in this world.i am only human.i myself cant differ from other pple.i gossip,i do bitch,i discriminate,i swear but not to the extent of toweringly hurting another human feelings.as i say
im only human.i made tremendous mistakes and im still making them.
it just leads to one thing:life.have a day for yourself or maybe an hour even a moment will do where you're all alone,close ur eyes and think.just think about LIFE
and whatever your thoughts say,thats the ANSWER
i believe God created human all the same,all equal therefore i believe DEEP inside evry one being,there's this small little soft spot where even the treacherous hate CANT overcome.
life has taught me priceless meanings but life's fragile so as long ive got,im gonna treasure itas well as the live presence of my dear ones,mumdadnor azan firdausnurOolhudamy extended familymy canteen cliques:nanaaa,lelaaaa,srieee,asphooo,nabilaaaa,nuruuulmy class dearies:lyn,angie,val,xHui=)oh yarhs,while waiting for dad,the sky open and down came the heavy rainand heavy rain+coldness+alone+loneliness+boredom+Umairah Abdullahgives you this:in the cold,cold weather
i longed for my heart's desire
never did i ever thought you would backfire
with the intense hatred burning,
will this heart of mine end it up with another cold shoulder
will i have the courage to turn and walk away
but in the middle of my pathway i turn back
reminiscing the tender moments of me and you together
can i ever take another step forward without any thoughts of you that makes me shudder
how do you think will this end?
well,let me tell you this:
NEVER
the never ending tales of the perfect imperfectionistafter evry cold biting heavy rainfall,
there'll always be beautiful sunny sunshine
that will make you see an even brighter
RAINBOW
ask yourself: what's life to me?
5:46 PM;
go on, gimme some♥
