empowered.

Hello, Pretty Strangers.
I'm learning on how to change the world, by changing diapers first.
I'm an only child with four sisters and a brother.
No. Wait. Make that five sisters. I was told to choose one more, anyone in the world and I chose her.
I was spoilt as a child and is still trying to grow up.
But there are "evil" people in the world who makes pretty things and I can't seem to stop myself.
Especially colourful undies.
&bags.
&trinkets.
&bags.
&bags.
Still trying, though.
I love to eat but I don't hate the treadmill.
I'm just plain lazy.
Lazy.
& fickle.
I like to pop by SB-TH and give my Bubbles & Buttercup chocolates.
Then, I'll spend all my money buying a Venti & just waste my time away.
Perfeckt.
My issues with hair is never-ending.
I love bimbo books, with pretty covers.
Aisyah Sufiyah is my favourite-est-est girl.
My friends call my continous, multiple, self-shots; narcissism.
I prefer to say its capturing memories.
I never had the bestest group of friends like I have now.
When I'm not happy, I talk to God in English.
& He listens.
The rest of the time, I'm pretty much happy.
So, in short;
My life's very much blessed.

i miss you...

i guess after all that i went thru in my life, all the shits
i do know now that i miss r0ol
yes i do
things happen
there were ups and downs
many were there for me or mebbe so that they're there only as a being
mebbe just as a friend
but i need someone
to be there spritually
to tell me its ok to cry
i do know that r0ol has things happening in her life now
things that im not just in a position to know
the moment i knew she's moving, she's leaving
i knew its not going to be the same anymore
i know its not like she moved across the globe
but the distance between us
yew tee & amk
unity & peirce
is just worlds apart
i told myself right from the start that i should be wary that there wont be the same life i had wit r0ol
nope.
there wont
i told myself that whatever's happening in her life and mine is none of our concern anymore
right from the start, r0ol has always been a 'people' person.
she'll be there for evry single being in her life and evryone's her bestie
but i then i realise,
im not just the friend she has right beside her
she's my
sister
yeah
mebbe not blood sister
but we are what we told ourself to be
i just dont know what to say or do anymore
i dont just need someone who is a friend
i need a true friend who i confides with
yes its difficult
at times like this
with mid year,prelims,o's
i know that i have to be strong to just go thru shits alone
i know i have him
he'll be there
but there are times that i need someone...
someone of the same sex to talk to, to hug, to cry, to share, to laugh

i just do...

...
all the things we did
...

in the whole wide world,
i just have these to keep me going
a loving, caring, just-oh-so-bestest mum who's 52
a oh-i-dont-care-but-i-do attitude, caring dad who's 64
and
the greatest guy ive ever known in the 16yrs of my life, humpty baby who's 17
yeah
my parents are getting on with age
and im merely 16
i just wanna do evrything ever so quickly so i can just pass with super flying colours and work
yes, they're still working
working for me
and at their age, its not right
its time for me to do something for them in return
they kept me going
they spritually picked me up when i fall, time and time again
even thou the parents dont know a shit bout the shits i went thru
and if its time for them
im left with nobody
really...
i love them so much that i just pray to god that He'd let me love them as much as i can, as much as i do before He loves them more
i just got to have the courage to continue
for them...

r0ol...
i wish
time and time again
you're gonna be there
and
i hoped that ive been there
as much as i could
for you
when you needed
i know
we'll always be what we're meant to be
i know
there's nothing
i can do to make things right,
for you
but
i'm always there
i hope you knew
and
i know
you'll always be
here in
my heart
till death do us part
-meyaa-

the times we shared
are fond memories,
sweet reveries
that will always be kept
here,
in my heart

i will always do
i just wished you knew

7:07 PM;
go on, gimme some♥

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