hellooooo peepooosss
not been bloggin
i noe i noe
but its depressing havingg to blogg wit no one reading!!!
heh:)
wellllllsshhhh
feelinn kindaa downnn
very very down underr
and
all i do to let go is to...
"cry on
bed evry nite..."
nuffink beats to doin that manns
rockinng
i cantt even pourr out my deepesttt cries to my baby
i just cant do it
im kindaa shocked that "something" that happened in the past
which i "tot" ive gotten over witt is now
haunting me!!!
dreads mannss
coldd sweat chills my spine
i just hate the fact that i went thru that "something"
ookiee lemme describe "something"
-a past event
-me and someone
-me being blamed
-me being point at
-me cryingg my eyes outt
-me having a record
-me being looked at a diff wayy
-me havingg to be mocked at by my own parents
-me me me and more me
so u must be wandering what happen to that someone
well
surprise surprise
of cuz someone got what that someone wanns
i dunn care
or at least i hope i didnt care 2 hootss abt it neemore
and come to think of it
the relationshipp i had wit that someone is purely based on lies
just pure lies
and i didnt come to realise abt it until "something" happen
mebbe "something" is a blessing in disguisee
cuzz now i need nott live on lies
but
whyee must it hit me back
when after all its all reminiscence
i just dont understand
and
i know u dontt too
thinggs are very complicated ferr me now
i tend to be a happyy witt peeps
but
when im all alone
accompanied by the lonliness of the dark skies
tears just trickle down my cheeks wit tots of the past present and future that ive gotta face
whatever whatnotts
i just couldnt stopp
i hate it
and
really
i
wanna
flyyy
yeapp
its a reel storyy peoplee
its me
meya
ur fren
or at least thats whatt i tot
i hoppe i can tokk bout it to baby tonite but he's bz and i just cant do it
i reelli need someone
cuzz
"im weak...its true;cuzz im afraid of the answerr"
out-
10:03 PM;
go on, gimme some♥